Walk upon the waters

On the journey.... Where my trust is without borders...

Oceans

Inspiration today - sermon 15th November 2015

Today I visited a different parish. And God really touched my heart there...
Here is my prayer, painted before service and during first worship songs

And here are my scribbly sermon notes and drawing and painting - inspired by the sermon, by prayers, by worship song Oceans....

Oceans

I heard this song for the first time today during my first visit to a different parish church... 

So real and so true words of worship...

I was praying, singing and crying.... And I painted a prayer too... And will pray and paint more...  

https://youtu.be/DGRz2BJQRXU

I remember the time when I started to scribble my painted prayers during our worship group practice at Lutheran Church at Calgary, Canada, while we listened worship song of Michael W. Smith Ancient Words for the first time... And worship leader asked me if I would be open paint during worship at church... I prayed and said yes. And that yes opened a new door for my creativity... New door for sharing my faith with the congregation...

I have lived through amazing time at Canada, involved in worship, ministry, sharing my faith and gift of creativity in my parish church and daily living my faith in L'Arche community... 

Those 2 years of my life in Canada were so far the most connected time of my visual art creativity in worship, prayer in daily life and inspirational spiritual direction meeting with FCJ sister Pat D. I am still in touch with lots of lovely Calgary people through prayer and through Facebook friendships... I know I am at different stage of life. I am not at Canada. I am not singing at all night prayer meeting at HTB at London... I do miss all those times, but I know I am at different place now...

I feel like I have been living in the middle of huge and dry desert last few years spiritually. But all makes sense. Everything is a part of a bigger picture... So much learning...times of uncertainty and questions...

So much has happened in those last 12 years since I left Canada... My life has changed so much. But what has not changed is who I am in Christ... But so often I felt lost and just not knowing where is God calling me....

But today I feel the new hope and new fire in my heart... God renewing and refreshing my heart and starting to heal lots of broken things.... I pray and I seek to be open....

I pray with the words of song I heard today for the first time:

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour.



Amen

Forgiveness

My next painting would be about forgiveness... Prayer paintings usually come to me before the words, but this time the process is different... Watching Dr Who last night really moved me to see myself and my heart in very new light... I became painfully aware of things in my heart that were not good, God really pointed to me unforgiveness towards few people that has been deeply rooted in my heart for several years... I pray for God's Love, Grace and Mercy to transform me through forgiveness and healing.... 

I actualy began painting this prayer yesterday and felt very puzzled as I did not understand what God was trying to tell me....

 Things becoming clearer and I completed the painting tonight...